Getting into it!

It doesn't matter how much preparation you do in life, sometimes life gets in the way of doing things.

And its true, life does get in the way...

4 weeks ago I was sitting on my couch hanging out for the program to start. I was also quietly packing myself as to how we would afford to live. My partner is still looking for work after being injured in the Army, and I was a casual teacher, and who wants a casual teacher at the very start of term. Yes it made me depressed that my bank account would only keep me going until the end of Feb. it was a bit of a low point but the 12wbt was taking over my life and I was preparing for the road ahead...

And then my life happened!
I got offered a job, which I took gratefully. I love being a teacher, sometimes its hard, and the kids push my buttons, but I can joke with them, and laugh with them and learn with them.

Unfortunately while my life was happening, the 12wbt program started and left me behind. Now I'm not going to lie and say that I have been trying to balance the two. I haven't. My career is demanding at the best of times, factor in that I had 18hours notice before I started face to face teaching, and well I'm still playing catch up with my planning :/. I honestly cannot get ahead, there are not enough hours in the day.

Now, my teachers are helpful, but I have to do it myself. Now I have a job, we can move as well, which means I am now playing catch up with my planning, moving, and starting a new weight lose program, ARGH!!

I am committed and I have been following the meal plan. Right now that is the best I can do. I fit in my exercise where I can, have worked out three times this week. It's not the recommended 6- does that mean I'm a failure? Hell no. I am trying, and that is all that matters in my book!

I do struggle to get myself out of bed, and because I started getting sick, I did decide that I would continue to get up at 6 so I didn't put too much stress on my body... Now I am feeling better, I will be happy to get up at 5:30 and do a half hour work out. Ok so its not an hour like it should be, but honestly how much exercise did you do prior to doing this program? Huh?! Be honest, because if I'm honest, the 3 days this week I've done something has been 3 times more than I would have this time last year. Last year I would have been sleeping in as long as possible, getting up, getting ready for the day, and then sitting doing nothing much at all.

My portion sizes were HUGE! My partner and I could eat two whole pizzas between us in one sitting :/ Yikes. Not only were our portions too big for the activity we did, when we did go for a walk, it required a "treat" for doing something.. And honestly who else has done that, we are not the only ones.

Our pantry now looks different... We have less pasta, which we would eat by the kilo, we have NO diet or normal soft drinks. Martin could consume litres every day if I let him. We have lots of cans of beans, I got rid of the instant sauces. Our meals look different too. They are small. They are calorie controlled, and we are full when we eat them!!!

I may not be doing all of it, all of the time. But I am trying and starting to give it a go... And to be honest, it will make for slow losses. Does that mean I'm doing the wrong thing? No. At least I am doing something about my weight loss and am no longer making excuses for the way I look..

I look this way because I over ate as a child, I over ate as a teenager, and I did no exercise. I did no exercise because I couldn't do it well, so I refused to do it, therefore not building up my fitness, not getting any better, and staying down low in the bottom of the hole I had built for myself... None of that was healthy....

I am like this because when I moved out of home, I moved to a city where I could access fast foods more easily, and took advantage of this. I worked at a fast food outlet, didn't help either!

I could easily make excuses, but I won't. I could easily blame others for this, but it wouldn't be fair on them.. This is MY fault- and only I can make the changes to change me. I can't expect people to pick me up and shake me until I'm angrier with them than myself....

I WILL climb mountains, I WILL run- yep I'm making that commitment, I WILL ensure that when I have children, they have healthy looking parents that care about their health....

But like I said, ONLY I can change me... Which means only you can change you. And Are you prepared, scared, pumped, committed enough to do that, or are you making excuses????

Think about it and get back to me!